date: Tuesday, March 08, 2005 @ 8:34 pm
title: Mum...
-: Now.. Pissed! I accidentally switched off my CPU and now trying to re-blog :-
Today was a short day.
Woke up late, 'cos I was too overly-tired.
Mummy purposely didn't want to wake me.
She's against me in schooling.
Bleah!!
-End of Blogging-
ZHan!! Go get a life!
I was soooooooo chatting with Helen.
Ha! God was speaking thru me to her.
I'm abit manifesting here.. I can feel something on my fingertips..
Morning was madness..
Am I crazy or what?
Mum is against me to go to school, but I argued that I want to go..
Yesterday was another day of one-side quarreling...
She was digging into all my past and repeating everything again. Bla bla bla bla..
She screamed at me for not doing what she wants me to do now. She wanted me to visit the RJC website and learn something from there, and with the dumb history project on my hand to complete( which is now scraped off after a long discussion with history dean today. Yeeha!!), of course I will be super pissed off lor..
Let's talk abt Mum first..
She's very contradicting..
Yesterday's quarrel was the fine example..
Firstly, she was all blaming me for listening to my relatives' advise more than her and not doing what she asked me to.. bla bla bla and the list goes on. She said that I ignored her teaching and everything, which was sooooo not true. I hated the way she phrased the whole-you-didn't-listen-to-me rebuking, which was only her side of the story. Luckily this time, she didn't include the you-always-read-bible-and-junks-and-didn't-study-for-'O's, 'cos all was proven with the fairly well results I got with God's grace.. Bleah!!
The reason I seem to be listening to my relatives was that, she was too involved with her job during that time and you know.. young boy going thru puberty need emotional support the most thru out the whole growth thingy, den where was she? Either busy with paperwork or in her room sleeping soundly.. Den I was always having activities with my relatives, so I just listened to their advice for once, den she treated it as thou I have committed a great iniquity. Bleah!!!
She's been repeating it for years and years.. I wonder if that's the only thing she remembered, that's why she keep on using the same old clinche excuse for my disobedience. Bleah!! Haha.. think of it, it's quite funny..
The funniest part of yesterday's quarreling was she mentioning that I didn't follow her study method when I was young, in which I dun recall anything method was imparted to me. Den she repeated and repeated..
However, during the 2 months before 'O's, she didn't care about my welfare, except the time she needed my service. Den she blamed me for not studying?? what was she trying to drive upon!?!?!
I tahan.. I didn't say anything but nodded my head whether or not i agreed to her accusations. I was like... 'Luv your mama!! lalala.. Luv your mama!! lalala...' I was weeping in front of monitor, I was like trying to stay cool and poised myself upright. But was futile. I burst into tears...
Okie.. let me tell u something. Be careful of what you pray for. Seriously BE CAREFUL!!!
I remembered praying for the ability to cry, because I couldn't cry and it's hard to not to cry if you have to cry.. Get it? So now, this year.. I have been crying alot as in more than 10 odd times.. almost 80% in God's presence, the other 20% u should know..
Okie..
Crying is not only little girls' way to get out of serious trouble anymore.
It's my ticket to rest my ears and cool my steaming blood, which is already above the boiling point. And it was proven authentic, with warranty chopped.. She stopped with a lousy ending.
'You are crying, because what I said was true right?'
No.. You weren't.
'Yarrrrr...' i replied with all the fluid blocking my stuffy nose. Peace at last.
I'm laughing as I try to recall what happened yesterday night.. Not laughing out loud, but smirking..MAN!!! what a night I had! But it was great though.. >.<
At least I know, mum is abit radical enough to 'scold' me.
Actually, Daddy and her were quarreling, den in the end...
Mum gave in and Daddy went for his friend's birthday party..
Left me and mum at home. Finished liao. I was sooooooo prepared to get scolding, rebuking, disciplined and vocally slaughtered. At least, when she spoke out all her displease, let her anger dispersed at someone like me.. she will feel better. If it was someone else, I confirmed that person will surely cannot tahan her.. Her tongue is like poison to the soul. Every word, she uses surely spark the hell-on-earth fight. Bleah!! that's Mum..
M.U.M = Mother Umbrage Me
Kidding!!! I luv my Mum.. even if she has to be radical. So be it...
Another thing about my Mum..
She's so opposite of other Mothers..
Even though, there's this chinese children song,
'Tian xia de ma ma tou si yi yang di'
My mum is just soooooooooo against me to go schooling, which is soooooo weird.
But I luv her. I can sleep late until my body clock says: Good morning, mama's boy!! Den i bounce out of my bed and slowly stroll to collect my uniform and wash up. Smiling a her and trying to perceive what she is going to do.. which usually she just smile back. : )
Okie.. Mama's boy go and study liao..
And also talk to Heavenly Daddy about my problems..
FATHER!!! Here I come..
Yeeha! God Rulzzzzz always...
